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Child Study Center Grand Rounds 02.22.2022

March 21, 2022

Perseverance Tells a Story

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  • 00:00Good afternoon everybody.
  • 00:01For those who don't know me,
  • 00:03my name is Terry Davila.
  • 00:04I'm a Puerto Rican cisgendered multiracial
  • 00:07currently without physical disability,
  • 00:08clinical social worker and I work
  • 00:10as the clinical coordinator for
  • 00:12outpatient clinical services and I
  • 00:14also serve as the Chief Diversity
  • 00:16Officer for the Child Study Center.
  • 00:18And it is really a pleasure to
  • 00:20welcome you to our second annual
  • 00:22Black History Month celebration
  • 00:24at the Child Study Center today.
  • 00:26The focus is on perseverance,
  • 00:30and perseverance tells the story
  • 00:32and looked up the definition,
  • 00:34which is the content for perseverance,
  • 00:36which is the continued effort to
  • 00:38do or achieve something despite
  • 00:40difficulty or opposition steadfastness.
  • 00:43If you're a person with an or
  • 00:46several personal identities which
  • 00:48have been historically marginalized.
  • 00:50And systematically oppressed.
  • 00:52You are forced to persevere the systems
  • 00:56constantly in opposition and everyday
  • 00:58existence can be an experience.
  • 01:00Excuse me,
  • 01:00you can experience as an act of
  • 01:03perseverance and while perseverance
  • 01:04tends to be lauded in a meritocracy,
  • 01:07just because one can be strong
  • 01:09and persevere doesn't mean that
  • 01:10we always want to.
  • 01:11Facing the obstacles of everyday racism
  • 01:13is exhausting and I often wonder
  • 01:15what it would be like to use all,
  • 01:17if not most of my energy just work.
  • 01:19I wonder what would happen if those of
  • 01:21us who consistently face the onslaught
  • 01:24of microaggressions could have the
  • 01:26privilege of not work worrying when
  • 01:28the next microaggression will come.
  • 01:30If we didn't have to worry if our hair
  • 01:32will be scrutinized or measure the
  • 01:34tone and volume that we used to say
  • 01:36things in meetings and decide how to
  • 01:38bring up an idea so that we can be
  • 01:41cautious or be aware of how it's heard
  • 01:43if we didn't have to think about all of that.
  • 01:45If all of our energy could be used to create,
  • 01:48innovate and contribute to our
  • 01:50missions in unencumbered ways,
  • 01:51our community would be even
  • 01:53greater than we are.
  • 01:55I was recently in a leadership training
  • 01:57that highlighted that people feel
  • 01:58most happy at work when they feel a
  • 02:00sense of connection and belonging.
  • 02:02This event, which is the second
  • 02:03Black History Month event,
  • 02:05is at the centre.
  • 02:06Excuse me,
  • 02:07at the center is an important step in
  • 02:09creating a culture in which all gifts
  • 02:11and talents are celebrated and to
  • 02:12foster a deeper sense of belonging.
  • 02:14The conversations and workshops we have,
  • 02:17the reflection spaces and the
  • 02:18increased conversations across the
  • 02:20center contribute to culture change.
  • 02:22Research has shown that cultural
  • 02:24humility increases and microaggressions
  • 02:26decrease when we actively learn about
  • 02:28the lived experiences of people with
  • 02:31personal identities outside of our own,
  • 02:33we have a steady cohort,
  • 02:34almost 200 people,
  • 02:35who have made attending our DIY
  • 02:38workshops and programs of priority.
  • 02:39I encourage you,
  • 02:41those of you who have not yet participated
  • 02:43to show up for yourself for your
  • 02:45colleagues and for our community.
  • 02:47Every program you attend that allows
  • 02:48you to hear about the lived experiences
  • 02:50of people who are often stereotyped.
  • 02:52You are countering the messages
  • 02:53and stereotypes that media
  • 02:55and others bombard you with.
  • 02:56But your efforts cannot
  • 02:58just be passive listening.
  • 02:59You must take what you hear and examine
  • 03:01your own biases and actively work to
  • 03:03stand up to them and those of others.
  • 03:06We're seeing some culture
  • 03:07change in our center.
  • 03:09In the training director who supports
  • 03:12providing growth in leadership opportunity.
  • 03:15By offering or looking for the
  • 03:18next training director while
  • 03:20they're still here in that process,
  • 03:22we were able to pilot a new process
  • 03:24of to minimize bias in internal
  • 03:27searches and the result of that is
  • 03:29a new practice and a new director.
  • 03:31The majority of our recent searches all
  • 03:34took steps to increase the diversity
  • 03:37in the potential candidate pool.
  • 03:39I was recently contacted by a lab who
  • 03:41worked to commit to DEI in their work,
  • 03:44created a statement and reached out to
  • 03:46me to ensure that there was alignment
  • 03:48with the center's efforts in theirs.
  • 03:50And while these are wonderful
  • 03:51steps as a community,
  • 03:53we must persevere as Co conspirators
  • 03:55in disrupting the structures that
  • 03:58oppress some and support others.
  • 04:00We must persevere in our efforts to
  • 04:02create a culture in which our bipac
  • 04:04and others with identities that are
  • 04:06marginalized don't have to navigate
  • 04:07obstacles but instead can put.
  • 04:09All of our energy into contributing to
  • 04:11furthering our mission and experience.
  • 04:13The happiness in a workplace that
  • 04:15comes from being valued and feeling
  • 04:16below the sense of belonging.
  • 04:18Our celebration today is an opportunity
  • 04:20to center some of our colleagues
  • 04:22and celebrate some of what we've
  • 04:24done without losing sight of how
  • 04:25much we still need to do.
  • 04:27It's not under the pretense of perfection,
  • 04:29but rather the acknowledgement of
  • 04:30the imperfect system we are in and
  • 04:33the desire to continue to change
  • 04:34it with grace and further so.
  • 04:36Please listen to these beautiful
  • 04:38examples of perseverance shared by your
  • 04:40colleagues with the desire to understand.
  • 04:42And with that understanding
  • 04:43and increased empathy,
  • 04:44make decisions to continue your
  • 04:46own practice of increased self
  • 04:48awareness so that you can deepen your
  • 04:50commitment to remove opposition and
  • 04:52increase connection and opportunity.
  • 04:53Monthly opportunities to join me in
  • 04:55reflection will begin on March 11th at
  • 04:5811 via Zoom. Details Will come soon.
  • 05:00I hope you'll choose to join.
  • 05:02Thank you for being here today.
  • 05:03Thank you for your ongoing commitment
  • 05:05and a special thank you to Doctor
  • 05:07Crystal Finch and Belinda Oliver for
  • 05:09their leadership and partnership in
  • 05:11coordinating this event and so now I
  • 05:13welcome again Doctor Crystal Finch,
  • 05:14the coordinator of family based of
  • 05:16FBR Family based recovery and one
  • 05:18of our Grand Round Committee chairs.
  • 05:22Thank you, thank you so much.
  • 05:23I'm going to share my
  • 05:25screen before I get started.
  • 05:28And invite you on this
  • 05:30journey of perseverance.
  • 05:34OK. First and foremost,
  • 05:38happy Black History Month.
  • 05:40If you can't tell,
  • 05:42I'm excited because this right here is
  • 05:45how we persevere and tell our story.
  • 05:48The topic for this year was intentional
  • 05:50because it reminded me of my reason
  • 05:52why this work is exhausting.
  • 05:54This work is defeating.
  • 05:56This work can feel worthless,
  • 05:58but this work can also be inspiring.
  • 06:00This work can be endearing and this work
  • 06:03from me is an authentic representation
  • 06:05of myself for changing the culture.
  • 06:07The voice in holding,
  • 06:08accountability in spaces where silence
  • 06:10is often the loudest voice in the room.
  • 06:13Doctor Martin Luther King said it best.
  • 06:15The time is right to always do
  • 06:17what is right there for black
  • 06:19history is our nation's history.
  • 06:22Now that was just the intro.
  • 06:24So let me now really get started.
  • 06:26Perseverance tells a story.
  • 06:28A quick Google search will land you
  • 06:31on the definition of perseverance
  • 06:32as a difficult process in the
  • 06:35quest for ultimate success.
  • 06:36While an accurate description of the word,
  • 06:39I also believe it could expand
  • 06:40itself to include the words,
  • 06:42grit, determination, and glory.
  • 06:46Throughout black history,
  • 06:47perseverance highlights the
  • 06:48never ending fight for freedom,
  • 06:50equality and justice uplifting songs
  • 06:52which remind us of the beauty and
  • 06:55blackness encouragement to move forward,
  • 06:57and remembering to only look
  • 06:59back to see how far we've come.
  • 07:02And to never give up,
  • 07:03our ancestors walked through the nights
  • 07:06for Freedom March through city streets
  • 07:08for miles and miles for equality,
  • 07:10and demanded justice by holding
  • 07:12those accountable for the change
  • 07:14to use their voices for something,
  • 07:16anything that brought the plights of our
  • 07:18stories to the forefront of those in power.
  • 07:21Maybe you recall Henry Box Brown,
  • 07:23a slave who mailed himself for freedom.
  • 07:26Or Ruby bridges the first African
  • 07:29American child to desegregate an
  • 07:31all white school in Louisiana.
  • 07:33Then there was the Mexico
  • 07:35City Olympics protest,
  • 07:36which was one of the most iconic
  • 07:38movements in sports history and activism.
  • 07:41Tommie Smith and John Carlos were hailed
  • 07:44as heroes as they stood with raised fists,
  • 07:48black gloves to represent solidarity
  • 07:50and support with black people and
  • 07:52oppressed people around the world.
  • 07:54Chulis,
  • 07:54strategically wearing black socks
  • 07:57to represent black poverty,
  • 07:59perseverance tells a story.
  • 08:01Perseverance is also told through
  • 08:04the family church songs.
  • 08:06The memories of sitting on our
  • 08:08grandparents lap listening to
  • 08:09the adults with the quiet air.
  • 08:11You know that was us children as being nosy.
  • 08:15Tapping on cans outside just to make music,
  • 08:17which reminds you of the freedom
  • 08:20useful very long for.
  • 08:22Perseverance tells a story through activism,
  • 08:24sports, politics, military,
  • 08:26social service, the medical field,
  • 08:30education law, the list goes on and on.
  • 08:33Black historians came conquered
  • 08:36and continued to persevere.
  • 08:38Black History Month has always
  • 08:40highlighted the knowns.
  • 08:41Famous the known famous historians
  • 08:42and the greats of the likes of
  • 08:45Doctor Martin Luther King Rosa Parks,
  • 08:47Harriet Tubman,
  • 08:48Malcolm X and Booker T Washington.
  • 08:51However,
  • 08:51today I'm going to share a few chill
  • 08:54Blazers who continue to inspire
  • 08:56me on the path for perseverance.
  • 09:01Shirley Chisholm, born in Brooklyn
  • 09:04in 1924 to Barbadian parents.
  • 09:06The story of Miss Chisholm makes
  • 09:08my heart smile as a celebration
  • 09:10to my native land of Barbados.
  • 09:12Shirley grew up in Barbados and considered
  • 09:14herself a scholar in American politics.
  • 09:17She was best known as the first African
  • 09:19American woman to be elected to the
  • 09:21House of Representatives in 1968.
  • 09:23Shirley said if they don't
  • 09:24bring you a seat at the table,
  • 09:27then bring a folding chair.
  • 09:31James Baldwin,
  • 09:31the man who sought truth,
  • 09:33whether you liked it or not.
  • 09:35Born in Harlem, New York in 1924,
  • 09:38shared the Untold truths of racism,
  • 09:40poverty and inequality.
  • 09:42James Baldwin also advocated
  • 09:44for gender rights as an open,
  • 09:46openly gay black male who said his
  • 09:49identity helped create his work.
  • 09:50James Baldwin said I have to make you
  • 09:54conscious of the things you cannot see.
  • 09:56Madam CJ Walker was the first black
  • 09:58billionaire in a time where black
  • 10:00Americans didn't own much of anything.
  • 10:02Madam, CJ knew the key to a black woman's
  • 10:05heart was through the care of her hair.
  • 10:07Miss Walker created black hair
  • 10:09products but also educated,
  • 10:11trained and inspired black women to
  • 10:13be the best versions of themselves.
  • 10:15Madam CJ said, don't sit down and
  • 10:17wait for the opportunities to come.
  • 10:19You have to get up and make them.
  • 10:22You cannot speak of perseverance.
  • 10:25Oops, sorry.
  • 10:26Madam CJ.
  • 10:28You cannot speak of perseverance
  • 10:30without acknowledging our
  • 10:31nation's first black president.
  • 10:34Barack Obama and our first
  • 10:36lady Michelle Obama.
  • 10:37Despite political party or affiliation.
  • 10:39In 2009,
  • 10:40Black Americans were reminded of the
  • 10:42hard work and dedication of those
  • 10:44who paved the road for us to walk,
  • 10:46and children wrote their names
  • 10:47in the future of the country
  • 10:49for longing for change.
  • 10:50President Barack Obama said
  • 10:52change is never easy,
  • 10:53but it is always possible and
  • 10:56it's this I say and leave you with
  • 10:58perseverance for black Americans and
  • 11:00for black individuals throughout
  • 11:02our nation will always tell a story.
  • 11:08Thank you. For that, and as
  • 11:12we continue to move forward.
  • 11:14I now welcome Belinda Oliver to share.
  • 11:21Good morning or good afternoon everyone.
  • 11:23Thank you for coming.
  • 11:24I'm going to read can you
  • 11:26see that change things I'm
  • 11:28not gonna share my screen.
  • 11:29It is a book by and children
  • 11:32anthem words by Amanda Gorman
  • 11:35and pictures by Lauren Lamb.
  • 11:38So it's a little young
  • 11:39black girl. Young child,
  • 11:40I can hear a change humming
  • 11:43and its loudest proudest song.
  • 11:45I don't fear change coming
  • 11:48and so I sing along.
  • 11:50Ice cream with the skies of red and white,
  • 11:53red and blue streamers.
  • 11:55I dream with the cries of
  • 11:58tried and true dreamers.
  • 12:00I'm a chant that rises and rings.
  • 12:03There is hope where my change sings.
  • 12:07Though some don't understand it,
  • 12:09those windmills of mysteries I
  • 12:11sing with all the planet and
  • 12:14its hills of histories.
  • 12:17I hung with 100 hearts each
  • 12:19of us lifting a hand.
  • 12:21I use my strength and my smart
  • 12:24take a knee to make a stand.
  • 12:27I'm bright as the light each
  • 12:29day brings, there's love
  • 12:31where my change things.
  • 12:34I show others tolerance,
  • 12:36though it might take some courage.
  • 12:40I don't make a taller fence,
  • 12:43but fight to build a better bridge.
  • 12:46I talked not only of distances
  • 12:49from where and how we came.
  • 12:52I also walk our differences
  • 12:54to show we are the same.
  • 12:57I'm a movement that roars and springs.
  • 12:59There's a wave where my change sings.
  • 13:03Change things where there inside me
  • 13:06because I am the change I want to see.
  • 13:12As I grow, it grows like seeds.
  • 13:15I am just what the world needs.
  • 13:19I am the voice where freedom rings.
  • 13:22You're the love where bright heart brings.
  • 13:26We are the wave starting to spring
  • 13:29for we are the change we sing.
  • 13:32Where the world is becoming
  • 13:34and we know it won't be long.
  • 13:37We all hear change strumming
  • 13:39won't you sing along.
  • 13:43For my mom who always believed in my voice.
  • 13:46AG for Tracy, who was always a vital
  • 13:49part of my work LOL.
  • 13:53I can hear change humming and
  • 13:55it's loud as bright as song.
  • 13:57I don't fear change coming
  • 13:59and so I sing along. Thank
  • 14:01you. Thank you so much.
  • 14:04So nice. Next we have had.
  • 14:10My doctor has been emons.
  • 14:19Yeah.
  • 14:22Good afternoon, I thank Tara Davilla
  • 14:25and Belinda Oliver and Doctor Finch,
  • 14:29doctor Crystal Finch,
  • 14:30for inviting me to present my prime today.
  • 14:34I am honored to have my work showcased in
  • 14:39the same venue as the remarkable Amanda
  • 14:42Gorman and illustrious Maya Angelou.
  • 14:46My point today is titled sell the
  • 14:49Storm because over centuries we have
  • 14:52been battered by many, many storms,
  • 14:55and particularly within the last couple
  • 14:59of years we've experienced unique storms.
  • 15:04And so I chose the prim.
  • 15:08Sell the storm.
  • 15:13When you are battered by the storm.
  • 15:16Drenched by the rain,
  • 15:19buffeted by the wind.
  • 15:21Harness the storm.
  • 15:24Package and sell it.
  • 15:28Capture the wind to turn into
  • 15:30power to light your space and grind
  • 15:34down the resistance that you face.
  • 15:38Collect the rain to water the
  • 15:40drive that flowers your dreams
  • 15:43and turn it into flowing streams.
  • 15:47Fetch the flash of lightning
  • 15:49to measure the distance
  • 15:51you have to travel. And deception
  • 15:54and difficulties to unravel.
  • 15:59Use the roar of Thunder to
  • 16:02echolocate obstacles in your way.
  • 16:06And the vibrations was to sweet.
  • 16:12Then March into the
  • 16:15marketplace and sell the storm.
  • 16:19The power from the wind.
  • 16:20The water from the
  • 16:21rain. The technology to
  • 16:23measure the distance of objects in space.
  • 16:27Strategies that inform new
  • 16:30ways of seeing twinned.
  • 16:33Important stuff. Nothing inane.
  • 16:38When you are battered by the storm. Harness
  • 16:43package and sell it. Thank you.
  • 16:52Thank you so much back, Diamond.
  • 16:56And next we have Felicia
  • 16:58Campbell. Thank you so much.
  • 16:59We shall for being here today.
  • 17:03Yes hello good afternoon everyone.
  • 17:05I'm Felicia and I'm happy to
  • 17:07be in this space with you all.
  • 17:09Thank you all for being here.
  • 17:11So I wrote a piece in my
  • 17:12journey through grad school,
  • 17:13which was a very important time in my life
  • 17:15and also a journey and story perseverance.
  • 17:17I have a hair so I'm just
  • 17:19going to show what I wrote.
  • 17:20When I started grad school,
  • 17:22I was both nervous and excited.
  • 17:24I couldn't wait.
  • 17:25After a 7 hour car ride with my parents,
  • 17:28I rather than Pittsburgh, PA.
  • 17:29In August of 2017,
  • 17:31Ready to start my journey and excited
  • 17:33for what felt like a new beginning.
  • 17:35I was so elated to be in grad
  • 17:37school and so proud to be the
  • 17:38first of my family to ever do it.
  • 17:40I greeted my roommate,
  • 17:41unpacked my boxes,
  • 17:42and began to set up in decorate my room.
  • 17:45I remember I posted a picture
  • 17:46on Instagram with the caption.
  • 17:48It's official y'all with
  • 17:49a bunch of flower emojis.
  • 17:51That first night six of my black classmates
  • 17:53and I got together and went to the bars.
  • 17:56All of us young black and in our early
  • 17:5920s were excited to explore our new city.
  • 18:02I remember that first night that
  • 18:03none of the bars would let in my
  • 18:05black male classmates because they
  • 18:07weren't following their dress code.
  • 18:08One had on a plain white T shirt
  • 18:11and another had on sneakers.
  • 18:12The girls and I decided that we were
  • 18:14either going in together or not at all.
  • 18:16So we all left,
  • 18:17but realized this kept happening
  • 18:18almost everywhere else.
  • 18:19We went on this trip.
  • 18:21At first I thought it wasn't a big deal.
  • 18:23Maybe they're just videoscan out here,
  • 18:25but then we noticed that this was a pattern.
  • 18:27We later got confirmation from local
  • 18:29residents and older students that
  • 18:31these racialized dress codes were
  • 18:32nothing known in a way of intentionally
  • 18:35keeping us out of their establishments.
  • 18:37The goal post would continue
  • 18:38to move every time,
  • 18:39no matter how we dress.
  • 18:41Unbeknownst to us,
  • 18:41this first weekend at the bars was
  • 18:44just the beginning of a long two years.
  • 18:46During my swears in Pittsburgh,
  • 18:48I thought a different base of racism
  • 18:49that I only saw or heard of on TV.
  • 18:51I thought Pennsylvania was so close enough
  • 18:53to New York to be on the safer side,
  • 18:55but what I didn't know was that
  • 18:57West of Philadelphia was nicknamed
  • 18:59Pennsyltucky in the rural parts were a
  • 19:01completely different world during the
  • 19:03fall of my first year in Pittsburgh,
  • 19:05I answered out of Black Majority
  • 19:06Elementary school and I remember how
  • 19:08come my students where the morning
  • 19:09that they found a black doll hanging
  • 19:11from a tree outside their school
  • 19:13like the local residents who told us
  • 19:14about the dress code at the bars.
  • 19:16These elementary students and the
  • 19:18school staff were disturbingly desensitized.
  • 19:21During the fall of my second year,
  • 19:23I remember waking up to missed
  • 19:24calls and texts from family and
  • 19:25friends, reaching out to check on
  • 19:27me to see if I was safe and OK.
  • 19:29I remember feeling so confused
  • 19:30by all these messages.
  • 19:32I quickly found out that
  • 19:33while I was sleeping,
  • 19:34eleven people were murdered during a
  • 19:35hate crime at the Tree of Life Synagogue,
  • 19:38which was 10 minutes from my apartment.
  • 19:40My friend and I packed up and split the
  • 19:42drive to Washington DC that evening.
  • 19:44We had to leave a hate crime committed
  • 19:46and a place of worship is something
  • 19:48our community knew far too well.
  • 19:50We understood what this meant.
  • 19:53Fast forward to graduation.
  • 19:55Weathered by two years of having a
  • 19:57full course load internship work,
  • 19:59lack of social support and then constant
  • 20:02discomfort and worry over a safety.
  • 20:04All of my black and brown classmates
  • 20:06started leaving one by one for other cities.
  • 20:08One left the morning after graduation,
  • 20:10one didn't even attend because
  • 20:11they were already gone.
  • 20:13One tried to stick it out with me,
  • 20:14but left eventually because
  • 20:15she could not get a job.
  • 20:17She immediately got hired when
  • 20:19she returns to Philadelphia.
  • 20:20Ironically,
  • 20:21Pittsburgh is ranked as one of the
  • 20:23most livable cities in America.
  • 20:25But for whom?
  • 20:26Why is the most livable city
  • 20:27in America the same city with
  • 20:29some of the worst disparities,
  • 20:31antiblack racism and antisemitism.
  • 20:33So again most livable city
  • 20:35for who and at what cost?
  • 20:37I left and came back to the Tri
  • 20:39state after both direct and indirect
  • 20:41encounters because eventually I felt
  • 20:42like the only choice that I had.
  • 20:44We cannot thrive where we are not safe.
  • 20:46For starters,
  • 20:47it's one thing to recruit people of color
  • 20:49and another to actually support them,
  • 20:51their safety and their growth
  • 20:52when they're actually there.
  • 20:54I appreciated the financial assistance
  • 20:55I received, but we needed mentors,
  • 20:58Community support, safe spaces,
  • 21:00allies for everything that
  • 21:01we were going through.
  • 21:03While being resilient in the
  • 21:05face of racism is important,
  • 21:06anti racism itself is what's
  • 21:08really necessary.
  • 21:09Endurance has its limits.
  • 21:10So here I am now,
  • 21:12three years later, better mentally,
  • 21:15emotionally, physically,
  • 21:15professionally, financially,
  • 21:16and I still get to continue
  • 21:19doing the same work.
  • 21:20I thought I was leaving behind
  • 21:21just in a different community.
  • 21:23I guess I continue working
  • 21:24with Black and brown girls and
  • 21:26support them in their healing.
  • 21:27I guess to sell them that they
  • 21:28matter regardless of what the rest
  • 21:30of the world may think or say.
  • 21:31I get to sell black children that
  • 21:33they are brilliant, creative kind,
  • 21:35brave, silly, playful.
  • 21:37I guess it's L black teenagers that
  • 21:39they're seeing, heard and respected.
  • 21:41So this is my story of perseverance
  • 21:43because every day that I get up,
  • 21:45I get to continue doing more.
  • 21:46Thank you.
  • 21:51Absolutely beautiful. Thank you so
  • 21:53much for sharing and bringing us
  • 21:54along on the journey with you. Next
  • 21:58we have tangela. There.
  • 22:04Good afternoon everyone.
  • 22:07I am so happy to be with you this afternoon.
  • 22:10I have to say usually when
  • 22:11I share my family story,
  • 22:12I'm talking to 7/8 and 9 year olds so I'm
  • 22:15not going to say this is intimidating,
  • 22:17but this is just a little bit
  • 22:19different than what I'm used to.
  • 22:20So what I'm going to do is share a
  • 22:22little bit more about the history,
  • 22:23which is what I don't go into a lot
  • 22:25of what I'm talking to the children,
  • 22:27so my name is Tangela Irby as you
  • 22:28know when I'm a part of the Yale
  • 22:30Center of Emotional Intelligence
  • 22:31and I thank all my colleagues,
  • 22:33there are many of you who are on this call.
  • 22:35I am the granddaughter of sharecroppers.
  • 22:38From Alabama, my parents grew up in
  • 22:40an area of Alabama that was called G.
  • 22:43Spin. At the time it is no longer.
  • 22:45Jeez man, it is called Boykin Alabama,
  • 22:47so if you were to look it up on the map,
  • 22:49you would not find GS.
  • 22:50Vin G Spin has come into the world I for
  • 22:56the wonderful quilts that they create.
  • 22:58And so here is a book.
  • 23:00When I turn the pages of this book,
  • 23:02I see cousins I see on caisi uncles there.
  • 23:06It was a very small community.
  • 23:08When I turned they just.
  • 23:09So look,
  • 23:09I see my grandmother and this
  • 23:11is one of her quotes.
  • 23:12There are a couple here in this book.
  • 23:14This is one of her quilts and so part
  • 23:18of the history when you it was an
  • 23:20area where people didn't have a lot.
  • 23:22They came from very when I say very little.
  • 23:24There was lots of love,
  • 23:26lots of care but they didn't have
  • 23:27a lot of resources and back then
  • 23:30people had lots of children so
  • 23:32my grandmother had 13.
  • 23:34My mother's mother had 13,
  • 23:36my father's mother had time,
  • 23:38they did not have heat in those houses.
  • 23:41So if you imagine as a mom
  • 23:43would write moms or dads,
  • 23:45you want to keep your babies warm.
  • 23:46So what did they do?
  • 23:47They make quotes.
  • 23:48And they got together and they
  • 23:50helped each other make those quotes.
  • 23:54The quilts if you think about it,
  • 23:56they weren't influenced by anyone
  • 23:58else in order to get to jeans Ben.
  • 24:00So even right now,
  • 24:01if you want to go to the store,
  • 24:02you have to get in the car for
  • 24:0445 minutes to go to Walmart.
  • 24:06If you're going to work at Walmart.
  • 24:08If you're going to work,
  • 24:08my uncle works in the Brickyard for
  • 24:10years up at 2:00 o'clock in the morning,
  • 24:12down there long, dusty Rd.
  • 24:14The dirt is red.
  • 24:16I mean, you are really that's what they say.
  • 24:18We're going to the country.
  • 24:19Yes, you are in the country
  • 24:20when you go to Jesus in Alabama.
  • 24:21As a child we would go and
  • 24:23coming from the north.
  • 24:24So you could imagine the things
  • 24:25that I was used to write.
  • 24:27So when I first went, there was an outhouse.
  • 24:29That's where we went to the bathroom.
  • 24:31We had to go to the outhouse
  • 24:32if you wanted to take a bath.
  • 24:34There was this big metal tub.
  • 24:37They bring the water in,
  • 24:38and that's where you took your bath.
  • 24:40My mother.
  • 24:40They had to go to the pump to get water,
  • 24:42and I remember the water having
  • 24:44the strangest taste ever because
  • 24:46it was not what we were used to.
  • 24:48But this was what you know.
  • 24:50This was home and they had when we
  • 24:52talk about the love you enjoyed going
  • 24:54there because you knew when you went there,
  • 24:56grandma was going to take care of you.
  • 24:58We weren't allowed to call her grandma.
  • 24:59She told us call me what your
  • 25:01Mama calls me as a 6 year old.
  • 25:03Well, how do you know who I'm calling?
  • 25:05Am I calling my mother?
  • 25:06Am I calling you,
  • 25:07you know but you just did back then you
  • 25:09did what they told you to do right?
  • 25:11That's exactly what you did.
  • 25:12So they go back to thinking about the
  • 25:14quotes and how they've come into the world.
  • 25:16I so people may say I've never seen
  • 25:18a GS being called. I don't know.
  • 25:20But what are you talking about?
  • 25:21Well,
  • 25:21have you seen the the official White
  • 25:24House portrait of Michelle Obama?
  • 25:26Have you seen those geometric
  • 25:27shapes in that dress?
  • 25:29Those were all influenced by genes,
  • 25:31being quilters jeans,
  • 25:33being quilts have appeared on
  • 25:35postage stamps and you see mine
  • 25:37are still in the package because
  • 25:38I will never open them right.
  • 25:40They've been on postage stamps.
  • 25:42They're on puzzles right now.
  • 25:43If you go to Amazon you can buy a puzzle.
  • 25:46My grandmother's foot is on that puzzle.
  • 25:48The footnote that I will add to
  • 25:50all of this there was someone
  • 25:52years ago who came around.
  • 25:53Do you have any old pills?
  • 25:54Do you have any old quilts
  • 25:56so you think about?
  • 25:57These people in Jesmyn,
  • 25:58Alabama who don't have alot someone
  • 26:00offering them money for their old
  • 26:02quilt that's in the back of the
  • 26:04closet that's in their old chest,
  • 26:05so they pretty much gave these
  • 26:08quotes away for nothing
  • 26:09right? And now that quilt is in his book.
  • 26:14So what's happening is the
  • 26:16younger generation is getting
  • 26:17together and saying you know what.
  • 26:18There are books that are
  • 26:20written about Gees Bend Alabama.
  • 26:21You can go. Like I said,
  • 26:22this book right here when I read
  • 26:24some of the things that are written,
  • 26:25my mom folded in the book my aunts
  • 26:28quoted in the book and I have other
  • 26:30aunts and uncles when I read the
  • 26:32things that are quoted in my mind,
  • 26:34I'm thinking I don't know if
  • 26:35she would have said that.
  • 26:37Right when I read what my uncle said
  • 26:39in the book and he's talking about,
  • 26:41you know, back then you got spankings
  • 26:42and they called him whoopins.
  • 26:44Well my uncle's talking about
  • 26:45whippings and biscuit.
  • 26:46Yeah I think my uncle really said that right?
  • 26:49So one way of controlling that is for
  • 26:51us to be able to tell our own stories
  • 26:53and that's where the younger generation is.
  • 26:56Right now we want to be the
  • 26:57ones to tell our stories.
  • 26:58We want to be the one that we're quilting.
  • 27:01They're quilting.
  • 27:01Those quotes are on Etsy right now
  • 27:04where you can buy a GS van quilt.
  • 27:06For years people would post.
  • 27:07She's been inspired both.
  • 27:09They weren't.
  • 27:10Geez been quilters,
  • 27:11but they were copying the
  • 27:12designs in the patterns and then
  • 27:14they were benefiting from it.
  • 27:15But now the community is really
  • 27:17stepping up and saying OK,
  • 27:18wait a minute this is ours and we want
  • 27:20to share our own stories and so my
  • 27:22way of doing that is my grandmother.
  • 27:24One of my grandmother is
  • 27:26Pearly Kennedy Pettway,
  • 27:27and I've written a children's book and it's
  • 27:30called Pearl and her jeans being killed.
  • 27:32I don't have children but I always
  • 27:34said if I had a child I would name
  • 27:36her Pearl after my grandmother.
  • 27:37So I birth my baby Pearl in
  • 27:40her jeans men quote.
  • 27:42So in the book and I spent a lot of time
  • 27:44talking to my aunt who was still injuries.
  • 27:46Ben and I was supposed to set the timer
  • 27:47so somebody can please let me know.
  • 27:49I'm used to talking at least
  • 27:50for 45 minutes with kids.
  • 27:51So five or six minutes.
  • 27:52It's hard for me, but I have plenty of time.
  • 27:55OK, I'll do my best.
  • 27:57So the cover of this book is actually a
  • 27:59quote that my grandmother Pearlie made.
  • 28:02Now these older quotes and I read it,
  • 28:04it wasn't even a GS.
  • 28:05Being quote UN quote was
  • 28:07recently sold for $80,000.
  • 28:08The most I had ever heard was
  • 28:11maybe 10 or 1020 or $30,000,
  • 28:13but this quote is worth a lot of
  • 28:16money had I not been from jeans band,
  • 28:19I don't think that I would ever be able to.
  • 28:21I won't say, ever,
  • 28:22right,
  • 28:22but I can't see myself paying
  • 28:24that kind of money for a quote,
  • 28:25but I will never sell my grandmother quote,
  • 28:28but I want other people to be able
  • 28:31to see my grandmother's quotes.
  • 28:32So I worked with an illustrator and she
  • 28:34has illustrated a quote that
  • 28:35was made by my grandmother.
  • 28:37Now a funny story that I don't
  • 28:38think I've ever shared publicly.
  • 28:40I hadn't seen this quote,
  • 28:42but when I learned to quote,
  • 28:44I actually made the quote that was
  • 28:46very similar to my grandmother's felt.
  • 28:48So I need to put them side by side and
  • 28:50so that you can see and it's kind of
  • 28:51scary when you really think about it
  • 28:53because I had never seen this full before,
  • 28:55so throughout the book I also have pictures
  • 28:58of other quotes like this was my baby quote.
  • 29:01And I know it's the GS being pulled
  • 29:03because it's tattered and torn
  • 29:05and I can see the Katniss inside.
  • 29:06And it's the same cotton that
  • 29:08are in the other jeans.
  • 29:09Sprinkles that I own because at this point
  • 29:11I don't even remember who made that false.
  • 29:13You know my mother is no
  • 29:15longer here to tell me.
  • 29:16So it goes back to why our stories are so
  • 29:18important because we're losing people.
  • 29:20And so as you lose someone,
  • 29:22if you don't share your stories
  • 29:23or explain to your kids with
  • 29:25certain things in your house,
  • 29:26mean if something happens to you,
  • 29:28they're already thinking about how
  • 29:29they're going to clean out that closet
  • 29:31because they try to get you to do it.
  • 29:32And you wouldn't do it.
  • 29:33But you know what I'm doing that first,
  • 29:35but they're gonna give away
  • 29:36treasures and things that have
  • 29:38stories that they have no idea of.
  • 29:40So shame on you for not sharing that
  • 29:43story with your baby so that they know.
  • 29:45And like I said,
  • 29:46I don't have kids,
  • 29:47but I have two nieces and they'll
  • 29:49never know the beauty of sitting
  • 29:50on my grandmother's porch,
  • 29:52watching the horses and the cows go by.
  • 29:54Or I always I never wanted to wear shoes,
  • 29:58so I'm walking around barefoot
  • 29:59you step on stuff because their
  • 30:01chickens were walking around the
  • 30:02yard so you know you have to be.
  • 30:04But they'll never know any of that.
  • 30:06And so I wrote the book too,
  • 30:07because I want them to be curious.
  • 30:09Now I want them to ask questions now
  • 30:11where there's still people here who
  • 30:13can answer those questions for them.
  • 30:15And so talking about perseverance
  • 30:17and being able to just rise above
  • 30:20your background and where you are.
  • 30:22So in the book,
  • 30:23the little Girl who's decided she spent
  • 30:25so much time with her grandmother,
  • 30:26she wants to make her own genes,
  • 30:27being quote and many of the young people
  • 30:29don't want to do what the older people did.
  • 30:31But this little girl,
  • 30:32because she's been around her grandmother.
  • 30:34That's what she wants to do,
  • 30:35and she talks about her grandmother making
  • 30:38sewing and how hard some of the fabric is.
  • 30:41So she says,
  • 30:41you know what?
  • 30:42No matter what Grandma keeps going.
  • 30:45Now that goes beyond what this little
  • 30:46girl is saying to her friends.
  • 30:48But what she sharing with them is
  • 30:50that when my grandmother sets a quo,
  • 30:52she's gonna work hard.
  • 30:53And no matter what,
  • 30:54she's gonna make it happen.
  • 30:55And that's another way of her saying,
  • 30:57you know what one day I am
  • 30:58actually going to make this call.
  • 30:59I am going to do this in
  • 31:01the quote in the story.
  • 31:03My always talks about she was
  • 31:05nine when her father passed
  • 31:06away and he always she would.
  • 31:08He would show her how to do everything.
  • 31:10He had a sense.
  • 31:11He knew that he wouldn't live long and
  • 31:12so he wanted to show her everything
  • 31:14that he could show her at that.
  • 31:15Early age of nine and she found
  • 31:17herself saying, you know,
  • 31:19I don't know if I could do it like you
  • 31:21and he said to her, you know what?
  • 31:23You can't do my best.
  • 31:24You can only do your best,
  • 31:26so that's another one of the
  • 31:28messages in the story in terms of
  • 31:30what I want kids to know about my
  • 31:32people and how hard they work.
  • 31:34You know,
  • 31:34I had a conversation with my
  • 31:36brother the other day and we were
  • 31:37talking and I talked to him a
  • 31:38little bit about he's a doctor.
  • 31:40Initially he went to school.
  • 31:41He didn't go to school to be a doctor,
  • 31:43but that was what he always wanted
  • 31:44to do and he never gave that up.
  • 31:46And right now he's a podiatrist.
  • 31:47Here in the state of Connecticut,
  • 31:49so I asked him where does that
  • 31:50come from and he said, you know,
  • 31:52I thought about how my mother and my
  • 31:54father didn't have the opportunity
  • 31:55to go to college and I think about
  • 31:58how if you give a young black person
  • 32:01the opportunity that they can do
  • 32:03and become whatever it is they want it.
  • 32:05If so,
  • 32:06he says that he's taking that on that
  • 32:09he wants to show the world he is
  • 32:12what opportunity will be for a child.
  • 32:15So think about that and you
  • 32:16know talking to other people,
  • 32:18hearing other people stories will
  • 32:20help you kind of frame things in your
  • 32:22own life that you never thought about.
  • 32:24Like I never thought about that.
  • 32:25But wow,
  • 32:26what a burden and a blessing to
  • 32:29carry to know that you can be
  • 32:31the example that if we look at
  • 32:33children as an opportunity,
  • 32:35what can this child become?
  • 32:36How can I help this child get
  • 32:38to where they want to be?
  • 32:40And so that was the take away that I
  • 32:42had from listening to my brother story.
  • 32:44And then the last thing I wanna
  • 32:45share with you.
  • 32:46Hopefully I have another minute.
  • 32:48Is that one more minute?
  • 32:49OK, so when I talk to kids you know,
  • 32:51kids in my like adults,
  • 32:53they're gonna ask you their questions.
  • 32:54So I was in a school and you know
  • 32:56I had read the book virtually and
  • 32:57the little boy raised his hand.
  • 32:59He didn't look like me.
  • 33:00His question to me was why is it
  • 33:03that's Pearl? Has hair like yours?
  • 33:07All I can say is Mike and I
  • 33:09couldn't have
  • 33:09asked for a better question because I
  • 33:11was able to say to him as this story
  • 33:13is about the people in my family.
  • 33:15So it was important that the
  • 33:16people in the book look like me.
  • 33:18I was able to say to him there aren't
  • 33:20a lot of books that had people
  • 33:22that look like me in their books,
  • 33:25and he proved that because
  • 33:26why was this stranger?
  • 33:28Why was this something?
  • 33:29Why did that cause him to have a pause?
  • 33:32You know, we need to do better.
  • 33:33We need to get our stories out.
  • 33:34The world needs to hear our stories,
  • 33:37so again.
  • 33:37I just want to thank you for this
  • 33:39opportunity for allowing me to share
  • 33:41a little piece of my story with
  • 33:43you and happy Black History Month.
  • 33:46Yes, thank you so much
  • 33:47tangela for that story.
  • 33:49We will have all of the books
  • 33:52and the Amazon links and all of
  • 33:54those things to be able to send
  • 33:55out as well to our community.
  • 33:57So that way you can continue to
  • 33:58support the work that our own
  • 34:00faculty is doing here.
  • 34:01And last but not least as we.
  • 34:05Talk about perseverance and
  • 34:07what it means to us all we
  • 34:09have to end with a bang.
  • 34:11So go ahead Camille.
  • 34:12You should be able to share.
  • 34:18Nope, you're on mute.
  • 34:20Good afternoon, I'm Camille Cooper and
  • 34:22I'm the director for teaching and learning
  • 34:25for the school development program.
  • 34:29I was asked by Belinda Oliver to share
  • 34:34Maya Angelou's poem. Still, I rise,
  • 34:38and when Belinda asks you something,
  • 34:40you gotta do it. So. Here we go.
  • 34:55Still, I rise. By Maya Angelou.
  • 35:00You may write me down in history
  • 35:02with your bitter twisted lies.
  • 35:05You may try me in the very dirt,
  • 35:08but still like dust our eyes.
  • 35:14Does my sassiness upset you?
  • 35:16Why are you beset with gloom?
  • 35:19'cause I walked like I've got oil
  • 35:23wells pumping in my living room?
  • 35:25Just like moons and like Suns,
  • 35:29with the certainty of tides,
  • 35:31just like hopes, springing high,
  • 35:35still I'll rise, did you see?
  • 35:40Did you want to see me broken?
  • 35:42Bowed head and lowered eyes shoulders
  • 35:46falling down like teardrops
  • 35:49weakened by my soulful cries?
  • 35:52Does my hardiness offend you?
  • 35:54Don't you take it off a hard
  • 35:56'cause I laugh like I've got gold
  • 35:59mines digging in my own backyard
  • 36:02you may shoot me with your words
  • 36:05you may cut me with your eyes you
  • 36:08may kill me with your hatefulness
  • 36:11but still like air I'll rise.
  • 36:14Does my sexiness upset you?
  • 36:17Does it come as a surprise that I
  • 36:20dance like I've got diamonds in
  • 36:23the meeting of my thighs out of
  • 36:25the huts of history? Shame I rise.
  • 36:30Up from the past that's rooted in pain.
  • 36:34I rise. I'm a black ocean leaping and wide,
  • 36:41welling and swelling.
  • 36:43I bear in the tile.
  • 36:46Leaving behind nights of terror and fear,
  • 36:50I rise.
  • 36:52Into a Daybreak that's wondrously clear.
  • 36:56I rise bringing the gifts
  • 36:59that my ancestors gave.
  • 37:03I am the dream and the hope.
  • 37:07Of the slave.
  • 37:09I rise.
  • 37:11I rise.
  • 37:13Iraq.
  • 37:18Thank you so much for that.
  • 37:22And I wish I could have scripted
  • 37:25this better other than the fact
  • 37:27that we asked individuals to share
  • 37:29and perseverance and each and every
  • 37:31single one of us and intertwined
  • 37:32with each other stories so very well.
  • 37:35And, you know, as we celebrate another,
  • 37:39you know, Black History Month
  • 37:41here at the CHILD Study Center.
  • 37:43I want each and every single one
  • 37:45of you all to just realize and
  • 37:47understanding that this work is.
  • 37:49This work will support the work
  • 37:52and perseverance,
  • 37:53but it's every single day work, right?
  • 37:57It's not Walt next February 2023.
  • 38:00We're here again.
  • 38:00It's each and every single day.
  • 38:02As we move forward as we paint our
  • 38:05stories and Tangela said it best
  • 38:07as we again control the narrative
  • 38:09of how the story is told, right?
  • 38:11Is is so very important that we
  • 38:13we do this with our Community
  • 38:16that we join together and support
  • 38:18and solidarity with one another.
  • 38:20For the hard work you know,
  • 38:23so I I just appreciate hearing
  • 38:25each and every single story and
  • 38:27hearing just the passion.
  • 38:29Come through your voice is this
  • 38:32today and you know we wanted to to
  • 38:35leave time to have our community,
  • 38:37you know, speak and our community.
  • 38:39Share and join in this work with us.
  • 38:41We will have many opportunities right now.
  • 38:44The the Belinda and Terra myself
  • 38:48we are looking to celebrate.
  • 38:51Juneteenth, in June,
  • 38:53with a lovely celebration and we would.
  • 38:56We would love for each and every single
  • 38:58one of us to be able to have the
  • 39:00opportunity to hopefully be in person.
  • 39:01But we are just looking forward to
  • 39:04continuing our work here at Yale,
  • 39:06which not only just elevates on
  • 39:08our black and brown community,
  • 39:11but continues the work that
  • 39:13that everyone needs to hear.
  • 39:15You know,
  • 39:15because I think it's as you seen today,
  • 39:17in each and every single one of our stories,
  • 39:19we continue to persevere.
  • 39:21So I thank you.
  • 39:22I will open up this time for comments
  • 39:26and questions or just statements,
  • 39:29so feel free you can unmute yourself
  • 39:30or you can put in the chat.
  • 39:47Well, I will just start
  • 39:48by saying thank you for.
  • 39:52Planning this event and giving
  • 39:56an opportunity for voice.
  • 39:59Of those of us on the faculty that
  • 40:03have always celebrated African
  • 40:05American History Month and to
  • 40:08introduce and share that celebration
  • 40:11with others in our faculty.
  • 40:15Right?
  • 40:29Y'all are being really quiet. Someone
  • 40:32needs to say something.
  • 40:35I think, Camille, I think,
  • 40:37at least for me, I'm just so moved.
  • 40:39I think that's partly.
  • 40:42Quietness the quietness is
  • 40:43the quietness of being moved,
  • 40:45not not from not having something to
  • 40:48say thank you so much beautiful, thank
  • 40:51you. Yes it was. It was like I said,
  • 40:53we couldn't have planned this
  • 40:57and it's it's tangela Felicia.
  • 41:00Doctor Edmonds the poem Oh my goodness
  • 41:01I'm I might go have a ice cream
  • 41:03I'm supposed to not be doing that
  • 41:05or I might have something sweet.
  • 41:07I'm just so excited. Thank you.
  • 41:11Well, crystal, I think you.
  • 41:14Certain, certainly Belinda and
  • 41:17Tara deserve a lot of credit
  • 41:19for putting this together,
  • 41:21and it's really quite wonderful
  • 41:25to see what you're able to do
  • 41:27and who wonderful people that you
  • 41:30enlisted to help you with.
  • 41:31So it's been a really very
  • 41:34worthwhile hour. Thank you.
  • 41:38Thank you and Jeanne.
  • 41:39There's just there's so much
  • 41:41beauty in our community.
  • 41:43If we take the moment to
  • 41:45create spaces to listen.
  • 41:47So I appreciate all of you taking
  • 41:49some time to be here today and
  • 41:52making this something important
  • 41:54that you celebrate with us.
  • 41:56These are the kinds of moments
  • 41:59that helped to shift how
  • 42:01we engage with one another.
  • 42:03So thank you for everyone.
  • 42:05I mean, I've every single
  • 42:06person voice here today.
  • 42:08I mean, I knew it was coming
  • 42:09and it was still very moving and
  • 42:11very lovely to sit and listen to.
  • 42:14So I also would like to just share
  • 42:16my gratitude to everyone who came
  • 42:18to listen but also to everyone who
  • 42:20shared so freely from their hearts.
  • 42:23Thank you. Go ahead Belinda. Don't
  • 42:25raise your hand unmute.
  • 42:28Listen, I am on my iPad and it's been
  • 42:30very interesting today I wanted to say
  • 42:33that I appreciate everyone for coming.
  • 42:37And I'm reflecting how far we've
  • 42:40come over the past two years.
  • 42:42We're not quite there.
  • 42:44The work sometimes gets tiring.
  • 42:45I will admit I get tired.
  • 42:47I get frustrated,
  • 42:48but this is a process and this is
  • 42:50what I wanted to remind everyone
  • 42:52that this is a process we will have
  • 42:54moments where we may not always agree.
  • 42:56But what I often say is if we
  • 42:58don't have the conversation,
  • 43:00we can't make the changes and so we
  • 43:03have to continue to have the difficult
  • 43:05conversations because this is.
  • 43:07We didn't get here overnight.
  • 43:10You know we didn't get into certain
  • 43:11places when we talk about systemic
  • 43:13racism and it has been years and years
  • 43:15and and I had a conversation Saturday,
  • 43:17I was at a funeral in Philly for
  • 43:20one of our bishops who has made
  • 43:22huge change in the school system
  • 43:24and I ended up talking to one
  • 43:27of David Parker who's in Akron,
  • 43:29OH, making changes at United Way
  • 43:31and we started talking about how
  • 43:33many changes that have to go.
  • 43:35We have to work together.
  • 43:36So I just want to say that
  • 43:38I appreciate our allies.
  • 43:40For those who are willing to put in the work,
  • 43:42those are willing to understand,
  • 43:44those are willing to take the hit
  • 43:46sometimes because sometimes you
  • 43:48have to take the hit and I just
  • 43:49want to say I'm appreciate you.
  • 43:51Thank you all for coming.
  • 43:53You all are wonderful.
  • 43:56Thank you bye. I
  • 43:59want to thank Tangela for sharing that
  • 44:02story about her family that others
  • 44:04I I would have no idea about that
  • 44:08and I really appreciate you sharing.
  • 44:10I have family from Alabama not
  • 44:11maybe from that particular area,
  • 44:13but we need to connect to
  • 44:16discuss some quilting.
  • 44:19I actually attended was just about
  • 44:22to write you a note for the same
  • 44:25reason that quilting can unite can
  • 44:27bring so many things together and
  • 44:30so many stories and I too have a
  • 44:33mother that that quilted and I would
  • 44:35love to love to compare stories
  • 44:37and quilts and just keep it going.
  • 44:40That would be amazing. Please do, please do.
  • 44:45Yep, and I just wanted to add
  • 44:47in regards to Felicia story.
  • 44:49I really want to say.
  • 44:51Thank you because I think sometimes
  • 44:54when we are coming into new jobs,
  • 44:56new positions, we automatically
  • 44:57think that it's easy and there
  • 45:00are those those trials and
  • 45:01tribulations that come with getting
  • 45:03with where we are today.
  • 45:05So I really want to
  • 45:06thank you for
  • 45:07sharing your story and your experience.
  • 45:09So thank you very much.
  • 45:14Thank you for listening.
  • 45:18If I if I could just add a couple of
  • 45:20couple of things on one. First of all,
  • 45:23just to say thanks to everybody.
  • 45:26Tara in particular I I was really taken
  • 45:29by the way you framed the conversation.
  • 45:33The what ifs I that really hit home to
  • 45:36me a great deal and dumb and I wonder
  • 45:41what what needs to be done or what can
  • 45:43be done to follow up with that somehow
  • 45:46because that you know a lot of people
  • 45:48I think have addressed that in some
  • 45:51ways over the years on a broad scale.
  • 45:53But I I I I was just following
  • 45:55you and wondering about that.
  • 45:57Even as I think about our kids
  • 46:01in school daily,
  • 46:02that's where my mind went right away
  • 46:05when you started talking about.
  • 46:06What if we didn't have to think about
  • 46:09how we sound when we were talking?
  • 46:12Sometimes you know the black child,
  • 46:14they they, they they angry,
  • 46:16black child and and so forth.
  • 46:18And I thought about what a friend of
  • 46:21mine shared with me about his grandson.
  • 46:25A6 year old little boy who his
  • 46:28father was in an accident.
  • 46:31A major accident that affected his brain
  • 46:34and everything else and he was in the
  • 46:37hospital for at least three months I think.
  • 46:40And that little boy went to school his
  • 46:44first day in school at six years old,
  • 46:47and he threw a pencil out of frustration
  • 46:51at some point and it hit another child.
  • 46:54It didn't hurt the child.
  • 46:56Thank God it hit another child,
  • 46:58but they wrote him up and the way
  • 47:02they wrote about the incident,
  • 47:04they described it as assault and battery.
  • 47:09And when my friend told me that description,
  • 47:12I thought how could an adult in a
  • 47:16school writing about a child a a
  • 47:20mistake that a child made really framed
  • 47:23it in terms of assault and battery?
  • 47:27I thought that was something that
  • 47:29people use with people in court,
  • 47:31some men and a woman getting into
  • 47:33a fight and God knows, you know,
  • 47:35assault and battery.
  • 47:35But a 6 year old child and put
  • 47:38that in his record.
  • 47:39They put it in his record,
  • 47:41whereas a little black boy that's
  • 47:44gonna follow him for a while,
  • 47:46assault and battery.
  • 47:47And so when you when you ask the question,
  • 47:50the what if?
  • 47:51That just resonated greatly with
  • 47:53me and I think especially about
  • 47:56what it means for little kids in
  • 47:59schools or even big kids in school.
  • 48:02But but African American kids and
  • 48:05kids of color in schools always
  • 48:07having to worry about the what ifs.
  • 48:11It's bad enough when we have to do
  • 48:13it as adults where we are right now,
  • 48:15but when children they have to do it
  • 48:19every day. That's what worries me.
  • 48:21But when you framed it like that,
  • 48:24Tara, it did something for me.
  • 48:26It just resonated strongly.
  • 48:35Thank you Faye, and I
  • 48:36think too like it is the
  • 48:37what ifs right? Because it's when
  • 48:39we think of the what ifs that we can
  • 48:42imagine something different because
  • 48:44without even pausing to wonder we
  • 48:47just continue to operate in in ways
  • 48:49that we don't even think about.
  • 48:51And so, pausing and thinking
  • 48:53about the what ifs,
  • 48:54finding ways to continuously have
  • 48:57spaces like this to talk to others
  • 49:01to understand the impact.
  • 49:03Is there just such an important thing?
  • 49:05So I thanks for sharing your words
  • 49:08as wealthy doctor Brown I appreciate.
  • 49:12Right, beautiful and and also just the
  • 49:15opportunities that we have as a community.
  • 49:18To that you know and and
  • 49:20that the stories aren't,
  • 49:21they may start off gloomy and they may
  • 49:24start off with us trying to figure out.
  • 49:26How did we get here, but that we always
  • 49:28know that there's a but we're going to
  • 49:30get there and we're going to complete
  • 49:32and we're going to persevere, you know.
  • 49:34And and you know, Belinda and many of
  • 49:36us have said today it's hard, right?
  • 49:38It feels like this is exhausting work.
  • 49:40But then I feel like opportunities like
  • 49:43today remind us of why we do it and
  • 49:45remind us of why we continue to inspire
  • 49:47not only ourselves but each and every
  • 49:50single one of us here and in the Community.
  • 49:52To continue doing this work
  • 49:54and to I used to say lift up.
  • 49:57But now I'm saying catapult,
  • 49:59our black and brown community into
  • 50:01positions where they can continue
  • 50:03to thrive and to just, you know,
  • 50:06be awarded the.
  • 50:08The steps that are needed to get
  • 50:10to get them going and 'cause you'll
  • 50:13be surprised how much a little
  • 50:15motivation and drive give.
  • 50:17You know those individuals who feel
  • 50:20powerless, you know, so you know.
  • 50:22I was reminded that it's it's it's.
  • 50:25It's never to get ahead.
  • 50:28It's always to it for equality
  • 50:29because we don't also want those
  • 50:32other individuals who feel like,
  • 50:33well, now they're ahead.
  • 50:34Now I got to try to get ahead.
  • 50:35It's always equality.
  • 50:36That is what we strive for.
  • 50:40So again,
  • 50:40I thank you so much for this
  • 50:43time we have more time from,
  • 50:45you know questions and things of that nature,
  • 50:48but. Or here. We welcome suggestions.
  • 50:55We try to get planning around like November,
  • 50:58so if you would like to continue in the
  • 51:01efforts and to share and if you know
  • 51:03even if you know individuals who do
  • 51:05trainings and things of that nature,
  • 51:06who will be more than willing and
  • 51:09welcome to come to our community and to
  • 51:11support this work that we're doing together,
  • 51:14we would greatly appreciate it.
  • 51:16Anyone else last words?
  • 51:18Doctor Martin,
  • 51:18you look like you were about to
  • 51:20say something.
  • 51:21Yes, thank you crystal.
  • 51:22So first of all, thank you.
  • 51:24Thank you everyone.
  • 51:25This was really a very moving,
  • 51:26very beautiful session.
  • 51:28So thank you for that.
  • 51:30I recently read something that
  • 51:32stayed with me and it said that
  • 51:34allyship is not a noun, it's a verb.
  • 51:37And I I I just would love to
  • 51:40hear from any of the speakers
  • 51:43your thoughts about that?
  • 51:44How could we become more
  • 51:46active verbs in allyship and
  • 51:49allying and being allies?
  • 51:52Thank you.
  • 51:55Well, one thing Andreas I can say is.
  • 51:59That you know,
  • 52:01saying it's a verb is an action word.
  • 52:03For us and for my community,
  • 52:06we must also remember that when you all help,
  • 52:09it's difficult for you to get.
  • 52:11That makes sense, and so one of the
  • 52:14things I always try to do is be cognizant
  • 52:17that with your help and support,
  • 52:19you're going to get kicked back at the
  • 52:21same time, I'm quite aware of that,
  • 52:23and so there's many of us who get
  • 52:25tired and so be patient with us.
  • 52:28Sometimes we may be a little rude or out
  • 52:30of sorts because we may explain it to you.
  • 52:33But then we got explained
  • 52:35it to say 50 other people.
  • 52:36You know, two days later,
  • 52:38and so there's times when
  • 52:39we have these sessions.
  • 52:41If it seems I'm a little out of sort,
  • 52:42I do get tired.
  • 52:44But I also realized that it's necessary,
  • 52:47and so even after and then I will.
  • 52:49I will just be transparent.
  • 52:51After George Floyd,
  • 52:52I actually had a conversation with someone
  • 52:56and realized I needed to see if therapist.
  • 52:59So I reached out.
  • 53:00I have a therapist, she is.
  • 53:01She missed our last appointment.
  • 53:03I'm good.
  • 53:04I'm a therapist providing
  • 53:06therapy and seeing a therapist,
  • 53:08but I understood that I needed the support
  • 53:11to stay calm to continue to do the work.
  • 53:14And so I need to remind that to my community
  • 53:17we have to do what's necessary for ourselves.
  • 53:20Self care,
  • 53:21where clinicians.
  • 53:22Here's where doctors to take care
  • 53:24of us to can you do the work because
  • 53:26we can't snap at those who are
  • 53:28become of allies at the same time.
  • 53:31Because if we do that then that
  • 53:33pushes them away and so you know
  • 53:35it's like a double edged sword
  • 53:37and so that has been replaying.
  • 53:39In my mind a lot,
  • 53:40even particularly from from George Floyd.
  • 53:42I appreciate my therapist
  • 53:44as a woman of color.
  • 53:46She helped me get my head right
  • 53:48and the great part of that is,
  • 53:50and I use this diagnosis a lot as
  • 53:52she gave me adjustment disorder.
  • 53:54She understood that there were stressors.
  • 53:56There were issues going on with my health,
  • 53:59my mental health surrounding
  • 54:00what I was going for,
  • 54:02and so I want to remind us I put in the
  • 54:04chat that as you diagnose people of color,
  • 54:07please be cognizant of what they're
  • 54:09going through and and there are
  • 54:11root causes to where they are from
  • 54:13that particular so under that.
  • 54:15Appreciate that you know I appreciate you.
  • 54:17You know my superpower because
  • 54:19you've stepped to the plate to
  • 54:22really pull all this together.
  • 54:23If it was not for you,
  • 54:25I don't think we'd be here today.
  • 54:27And for those who don't know the history,
  • 54:29Andres is the one that I reached out to.
  • 54:31Because I was concerned I was on this drop.
  • 54:35In fact,
  • 54:35because no one was having the conversations.
  • 54:38So you are an intricate
  • 54:40part of this process and
  • 54:41you are so appreciated.
  • 54:43If I haven't said it privately,
  • 54:45so I think I have,
  • 54:46but I want to say publicly.
  • 54:48I appreciate you love you dearly.
  • 54:50You are my heart, dude.
  • 54:55Andreas, I would like to add that
  • 54:58I would like to encourage those two
  • 55:00be open to new information and get.
  • 55:04I'd like to recommend two a great books
  • 55:08that I think would be helpful for
  • 55:11everyone and one is warmth of another
  • 55:15of another son as well as caste by
  • 55:19Isabel Whitaker that I think reading.
  • 55:23Those two books, especially cast,
  • 55:26will really help to open a open
  • 55:30your thinking in terms of how you
  • 55:34see the African American struggle
  • 55:37within the United States.
  • 55:39So I think just being open to new
  • 55:43information is is one thing that
  • 55:45I think would help in allyship.
  • 55:47Yeah, and yeah
  • 55:50I was just I was just.
  • 55:53But I did also want to add that
  • 55:55coming to conversations like this
  • 55:57and attending things even we need
  • 56:00people of diverse backgrounds and of
  • 56:02diverse experience and being allies
  • 56:04to be together in conversation,
  • 56:06we learn from one another.
  • 56:08We learn how to move the conversation along.
  • 56:10One you know, one thing that
  • 56:12each person who comes like takes
  • 56:15something and leave something.
  • 56:16And that's an important thing to do.
  • 56:18So centering and making time for
  • 56:21these kinds of conversations,
  • 56:22the workshops,
  • 56:23the trainings and the opportunities
  • 56:24that we have across the center.
  • 56:26Is another way to be active in allyship?
  • 56:30Thank
  • 56:31you so much for that question and I
  • 56:33challenge all every single one of us.
  • 56:34If you even haven't had the afternoon share,
  • 56:36just think about what you
  • 56:37would do and what you could do.
  • 56:38You know, I say I say it best is you
  • 56:40see something you say something if you
  • 56:42see something that it is the little off.
  • 56:44Say something and talk about it.
  • 56:46And so I appreciate the time spent.
  • 56:49I appreciate the questions.
  • 56:50The speakers for those of you
  • 56:52who stepped up and were just so
  • 56:54brave to Share your story.
  • 56:55I don't want to take that lightly.
  • 56:56It's not easy.
  • 56:57To do this in front of others and so I
  • 56:59just thank you so much for being here.
  • 57:01I hope this opportunity was.
  • 57:03While we're rewarded in some way.
  • 57:04And again,
  • 57:05I truly truly thank you all for just
  • 57:07taking your time and being here today so.
  • 57:10Enjoy your day and be inspired.
  • 57:13Thank you.
  • 57:15Hi. Thanks everyone that was amazing.