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Yale Psychiatry Grand Rounds: "The Healer's Journey: Living the Oath with Integrity"

June 21, 2024

June 21, 2024

Commencement Grand Rounds: "The Healer's Journey: Living the Oath with Integrity"

Lisa Harding, MD, Assistant Clinical

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Transcript

  • 00:00Katie, what an honor.
  • 00:04All right, Is that it? That's it.
  • 00:08Good morning, everybody.
  • 00:09We all get those departmental emails
  • 00:13from Doctor Crystal, you know,
  • 00:14the very general ones that come out.
  • 00:16And then I saw one that said,
  • 00:18dear Lisa, and it was, am I getting
  • 00:20called to the principal's office?
  • 00:22Do I open this now or at the end of my day?
  • 00:26Jokes aside, what an honor to be here,
  • 00:29to give you stories and impart
  • 00:32bits and pieces of my life in the
  • 00:35hope that it inspires you and the
  • 00:38exceptional honors because I am
  • 00:40still learning and growing myself.
  • 00:42To this graduating class, we have
  • 00:45watched you grow and learn in medicine.
  • 00:48This is the end of one kind of
  • 00:51learning at the beginning of another.
  • 00:54Throughout your residency,
  • 00:55you've navigated the intricate landscapes
  • 00:58of mental health care in America.
  • 01:00Very diverse and often very patient.
  • 01:04Very complex patient scenarios.
  • 01:06Your dedication to understanding the
  • 01:09nuances of psychiatric disorders,
  • 01:12coupled with your tireless efforts
  • 01:14to provide compassionate care,
  • 01:16has undoubtedly shaped you.
  • 01:19In these triumphs,
  • 01:20you've also confronted challenges
  • 01:22that are very unique to psychiatry,
  • 01:25navigating stigma within the field itself,
  • 01:29addressing systemic barriers
  • 01:31to care for your patients,
  • 01:33and above all,
  • 01:34managing the toll of witnessing
  • 01:37human suffering first hand.
  • 01:39Your resilience in the face of
  • 01:42these obstacles is a testament
  • 01:44to your unwavering commitment to
  • 01:46the well-being of your patients
  • 01:48and your own professional growth.
  • 01:51Today, we honor not only your achievements,
  • 01:55but also your resilience in overcoming
  • 01:58the distinct challenges of residency.
  • 02:01Congratulations.
  • 02:04Today,
  • 02:04as we celebrate your achievements,
  • 02:07I would like to ask you all to
  • 02:10live the oath with integrity.
  • 02:12I will share with you very deeply
  • 02:15personal experiences and how
  • 02:17this oath has been my guide with
  • 02:21the hope that you're inspired.
  • 02:23This is actually a picture of the
  • 02:25hallway in my medical school in Cuba,
  • 02:28El Juramento Hippocratico.
  • 02:29To the right of this picture is
  • 02:32the we have our anatomy labs.
  • 02:34The Hippocratic Oath is attributed
  • 02:36to Hippocrates of ancient Greece.
  • 02:38It is actually dates back to
  • 02:40between the 5th and 3rd century BC,
  • 02:43and it is it is part of the Hippocratic
  • 02:46Corpus and itself serves as the
  • 02:49foundational text for medical ethics.
  • 02:52I always like to note here the
  • 02:54contrary to popular belief,
  • 02:55it does not explicitly contain
  • 02:57the the phrase first do no harm.
  • 02:59That is,
  • 03:00that is really attributed to it quite a lot.
  • 03:05The modern version of the Hippocratic Oath
  • 03:08is attributed to Luis Lasagna in 1964.
  • 03:11Over time, the oath has undergone
  • 03:13numerous revisions to align with the
  • 03:16contemporary values of practice in medicine.
  • 03:19Our oath as physicians encapsulates
  • 03:22our commitment to ethical practice,
  • 03:25compassionate care,
  • 03:26and dedication to our patients.
  • 03:30Living this oath means embracing
  • 03:33our moral responsibilities,
  • 03:35ensuring honesty, transparency,
  • 03:38and respect in all interactions.
  • 03:42As you begin your careers,
  • 03:44let this theme guide you,
  • 03:47reminding you that integrity is the
  • 03:50foundation of our practice and the
  • 03:53key to making a meaningful difference.
  • 03:57I will respect the hard won scientific gains
  • 04:00of those physicians in whose steps I walk.
  • 04:03Many of who are here are here today
  • 04:06and gladly share such knowledge as is
  • 04:09mine with those who are to follow.
  • 04:12These words of the Hippocratic Oath
  • 04:15remind us that we are forever teachers.
  • 04:18See one do one teach one.
  • 04:22In everything that you do, you learn,
  • 04:26you practice and you teach.
  • 04:29We are so very proud of you.
  • 04:32I hope that you're proud of yourselves.
  • 04:34Continue to grow and educate
  • 04:37in every space that you occupy.
  • 04:40I did a search at ChatGPT of the
  • 04:4210 most influential psychiatrist.
  • 04:44So you know, it's ChatGPT.
  • 04:46So it's definitely true.
  • 04:48You've had the opportunity to train with
  • 04:51some key opinion leaders in our profession,
  • 04:55Dr. Crystal, Dr.
  • 04:56Sana Cora, Doctor Hilary Bloomberg,
  • 04:59Doctor Rajita Sina,
  • 05:00Doctor Block doctor,
  • 05:03Doctor Chris Pittenger.
  • 05:05These psychiatrists are not only recognized
  • 05:08for their clinical expertise and research,
  • 05:11but also for their innovative
  • 05:13approaches and the significant
  • 05:15impact that these approaches have
  • 05:17had on the field of psychiatry.
  • 05:20Guys, we walk in their steps.
  • 05:22A little story about me.
  • 05:26Guyana, where I was born,
  • 05:28is mostly known for just
  • 05:30the Jonestown Massacre.
  • 05:32It is now on the world's radar because oils,
  • 05:36oil reserves have been found
  • 05:38off of the coast.
  • 05:39I went to Queen's College in the capital.
  • 05:42Ironically the name Queen's College.
  • 05:44It only started admitting
  • 05:46girls in 1975 and it wasn't.
  • 05:49It was an all boys school until then.
  • 05:52For as long as I can remember.
  • 05:54I wanted to go to Yale when I was
  • 05:5717 years old. I had three jobs.
  • 05:59I made the equivalent of one U.S.
  • 06:02dollar an hour.
  • 06:03The undergraduate application fee
  • 06:05for the for Yale was sixty U.S.
  • 06:08dollars.
  • 06:08I did my SAT's and I applied
  • 06:11a few weeks later,
  • 06:13excitedly got the letter addressed
  • 06:15to me from Yale. I did not get it.
  • 06:19It hurt.
  • 06:21We all get to frame lessons
  • 06:24from disappointment.
  • 06:25I'm sure they're mathematicians in the room,
  • 06:27so please start counting with me.
  • 06:30This was rejection #1 while painful,
  • 06:35I kept working,
  • 06:37focused on my goal of being educated at
  • 06:40a prestigious university here in the US.
  • 06:43The picture on the bottom is
  • 06:44the house that I grew up in,
  • 06:46and my parents still live there today.
  • 06:51A few years later I was awarded a full
  • 06:54scholarship to attend A7 year combined
  • 06:57undergraduate medical school program in Cuba,
  • 06:59Ciencias Medicas facultad numero Uno.
  • 07:03Completely intimidated, I was actually
  • 07:05leaving home for the first time.
  • 07:07I'd only left the country a couple of times,
  • 07:10vacation and then come back living
  • 07:13on the socialist island of Cuba,
  • 07:15studying in a completely different language.
  • 07:18I remember at one point I was actually
  • 07:20the only English speaking person at my
  • 07:23school in a different political climate,
  • 07:25but wanting to serve my community
  • 07:29by becoming a medical doctor like
  • 07:32most of you did in medical school,
  • 07:34I overcame lots of challenges.
  • 07:37Still finishing at the top of my class.
  • 07:40Internship in Cuba, where I still
  • 07:42hold an inactive medical license,
  • 07:45involves independent practice.
  • 07:46You treat patients as a junior
  • 07:49attending and you get a salary.
  • 07:52I still remember collecting my
  • 07:54first salary as a physician,
  • 07:56the equivalent of 25 U.S.
  • 07:58dollars.
  • 08:01I left Cuba and moved back to the
  • 08:04Caribbean where I completed my licensure
  • 08:06and training and I was a senior house
  • 08:08officer in the Emergency department
  • 08:11of Victoria Hospital, pictured below.
  • 08:13And that grainy picture at the top was
  • 08:15the only one I could find of me in the ER.
  • 08:17I didn't wear scrubs.
  • 08:19I was always a fashionista.
  • 08:21I operated autonomously in an 8 bed
  • 08:24emergency room during my shifts.
  • 08:27The work was hard and I was burning out.
  • 08:30My husband, a native New Yorker
  • 08:32and like any typical New Yorker,
  • 08:34hates island life.
  • 08:36I'm kidding.
  • 08:37He hates the nonchalant pace of island life.
  • 08:39And so we moved back to the US.
  • 08:42As a foreign medical graduate,
  • 08:43you guys know how difficult it is
  • 08:45to match into any program in the US,
  • 08:48let alone a prestigious program.
  • 08:51I applied to the Yale psychiatry program,
  • 08:54didn't even get an interview.
  • 08:57Mathematicians rejection #2
  • 09:06I matched at my number one
  • 09:08choice which was the University
  • 09:10of Kansas Rock Chalk Jayhawk.
  • 09:13I decided to train under Sheldon Prescorn.
  • 09:17He is one of the greatest educators alive.
  • 09:21I get to call him Sheldon now.
  • 09:22That's so weird.
  • 09:23He taught me how to learn and
  • 09:26he taught me how to teach.
  • 09:28He prepared me to reapply here
  • 09:31at Yale and then told me you
  • 09:34would be lucky to have me.
  • 09:37When the third opportunity to
  • 09:40fulfill my dreams came through,
  • 09:42I applied to be chief resident
  • 09:45of Intervention psychiatry.
  • 09:46It was only one position that
  • 09:48I applied to and I expect and
  • 09:51I unexpectedly, Jen is here,
  • 09:53got invited to open to apply for all
  • 09:56the four open positions here at Yale,
  • 10:00all chief resident spots.
  • 10:01It was a really nerve wracking
  • 10:03experience for me and really frustrating
  • 10:05for Doctor Ostroff because he knew
  • 10:08that my only intention was to apply
  • 10:10for the position in intervention
  • 10:13and after after interviewing
  • 10:15all day from 8:00 AM to 4:00 PM.
  • 10:17He was actually my last interview
  • 10:19and all of the other positions were
  • 10:22inviting me to do way less work
  • 10:25for a Chief resident position.
  • 10:27Doctor Diaz called me because
  • 10:29Doctor Robal was out at the time,
  • 10:31offered me a spot.
  • 10:33All four positions were mine to choose from.
  • 10:37I chose the one with the most
  • 10:39work but with the most opportunity
  • 10:42and the rest is history.
  • 10:45Doctor Ostroff, for all of you that know him,
  • 10:47shows his love by pranking you.
  • 10:50Halloween 2019. I won.
  • 10:52You guys don't even know.
  • 10:55You have no idea how many sacrifices
  • 10:57I had to make to the Halloween gods
  • 10:59that he would show up for working
  • 11:01that pinstripe shirt that day.
  • 11:06Guys, there's so much to be
  • 11:09learned from chasing your dreams
  • 11:11because you sometimes catch them.
  • 11:14I graduated from Yale four years ago as
  • 11:17the chief of Intervention psychiatry.
  • 11:20Mathematicians. You still with me?
  • 11:22Yale two, me one.
  • 11:25You see the lessons we learn sometimes
  • 11:29for rejection, they go and come.
  • 11:31I don't know, had I got into Yale
  • 11:34the the two times before that,
  • 11:35I would I would have even been ready.
  • 11:39Like most psychiatrists,
  • 11:41I have interests in other areas
  • 11:44outside of my primary focus.
  • 11:46I was an American Psychiatric
  • 11:48Association Diversity Leadership Fellow,
  • 11:50and during that time I was detailed
  • 11:52to the Council of Psychiatry and Law.
  • 11:55I had the opportunity to explore
  • 11:57my passion for law and ethics in
  • 12:00the area of forensic psychiatry.
  • 12:02I read The New Jim Crow very early in
  • 12:05my residency and wondered how much
  • 12:07my working intervention, psychiatry,
  • 12:09could intersect with forensics.
  • 12:12I was able to have to interface and
  • 12:16work with many national leaders,
  • 12:19Doctor Paul Applebaum,
  • 12:20Doctor Howard Zonana, Michael Champion,
  • 12:23our very own Tobias Wasser,
  • 12:26Deb Pinals, Ken Hope,
  • 12:28Charles DK, Mike Norco,
  • 12:30and so many others on high level position
  • 12:33statements and resource documents.
  • 12:36I was awarded a prestigious
  • 12:39Rappaport Fellowship.
  • 12:40The fellowship offers the opportunity
  • 12:43for outstanding residents in
  • 12:45forensic psychiatry to develop their
  • 12:48knowledge and skills in the area.
  • 12:51I pursued a fellowship in
  • 12:53forensic psychiatry.
  • 12:54In fact,
  • 12:55after interviewing at a prestigious
  • 12:57school in New York City and immediately
  • 13:00being offered one of two of their spots,
  • 13:03I declined with the intention to
  • 13:06stay here at Yale and pursue a
  • 13:09fellowship in in forensic psychiatry.
  • 13:11Unfortunately,
  • 13:12Yale did not share that intention,
  • 13:15did not extend an offer for fellowship,
  • 13:18citing concerns about my writing skills.
  • 13:21Mathematicians still with me?
  • 13:24Objection #3 In the spirit of threes,
  • 13:27I am now serving my third year as an
  • 13:31Associate Editor of the Journal of
  • 13:34the Academy of Psychiatry and the Law,
  • 13:36and editorial written by me on the
  • 13:41regulation of ketamine has garnered
  • 13:44recognition from both national
  • 13:47and international regulatory
  • 13:49and academic institutions.
  • 13:52This is part of my reports card
  • 13:54for when I was three years old.
  • 13:56Yes,
  • 13:56we give narrative feedbacks to three
  • 13:59years to three-year olds in the Caribbean.
  • 14:02There's a meme that my daughter once sent me.
  • 14:04She said you can't hurt my feelings.
  • 14:06My parents are from the Caribbean.
  • 14:08They call these the general remarks.
  • 14:12The first says this is the most
  • 14:14beautiful thing about Lisa's a pupil
  • 14:16well primed and ready to receive.
  • 14:18However,
  • 14:19she has a definite self recognized limit
  • 14:22to how much work she will do at any time.
  • 14:26Having reached this limit,
  • 14:28she simply sits down and does nothing.
  • 14:32I will leave those who know me
  • 14:34to see if I have changed any.
  • 14:38There is so much effort that we
  • 14:41put into feedback this sandwich.
  • 14:44The truth is I don't eat carbs,
  • 14:47so the bread has never
  • 14:49been of interest to me.
  • 14:51Your lives will change when you
  • 14:54figure out what to do with feedback.
  • 14:58If all I could share with you was one thing
  • 15:01today it would be if like 3 year old Lisa,
  • 15:05you are always a student of life.
  • 15:08Feedback is always easy to receive. Guys,
  • 15:12if you think feedback in residency was hard,
  • 15:16wait until you meet real life.
  • 15:19No performance bonus,
  • 15:23one star reviews on Google,
  • 15:26no patients coming to see you,
  • 15:27an empty waiting room.
  • 15:30Understand that the feedback is
  • 15:33never the rejection that you feel.
  • 15:35Remove your own feelings from the feedback.
  • 15:39The feedback to the source is
  • 15:42the excellence that follows.
  • 15:44I know I have so much more rejection
  • 15:47and disappointment coming my
  • 15:48way even from here within Yale.
  • 15:51To the mathematicians,
  • 15:53I don't care because I don't ever give up.
  • 15:58If, in what you guys view
  • 16:01as the harshest feedback,
  • 16:02you can find one thing to improve upon,
  • 16:06you win. You will find where you belong.
  • 16:11I will remain a member of
  • 16:14society with special obligation
  • 16:15to all my fellow human beings,
  • 16:18those of sound mind and body,
  • 16:20as well as the infirm.
  • 16:23The story that I'm about to share
  • 16:25with you next I have never spoken
  • 16:28about publicly until today.
  • 16:30So you will hold my hand if I get emotional.
  • 16:33I may need some grace through this.
  • 16:36I grew up in the Caribbean,
  • 16:38where at the time the auction
  • 16:40to succeed was either becoming
  • 16:42a lawyer or becoming a doctor.
  • 16:45I did get into law school.
  • 16:46That's another story.
  • 16:47My father said no,
  • 16:48go be a doctor when I was 20 years old.
  • 16:52As I mentioned before,
  • 16:53I got a full scholarship to
  • 16:55study medicine in Cuba from the
  • 16:57government of Guyana.
  • 16:58That's where I was born.
  • 17:00The terms of the scholarship
  • 17:02were pretty simple,
  • 17:03get good grades and obey
  • 17:05the laws of the country.
  • 17:07I was in my second year of Med
  • 17:09school when I got pregnant.
  • 17:11I decided that I could have
  • 17:13a baby and finish Med school.
  • 17:16As a foreigner in Cuba,
  • 17:17you are required to complete the
  • 17:19semester in Med school and then return
  • 17:21to your home country to have the baby.
  • 17:24After that, I could come,
  • 17:25I could return,
  • 17:26go back to my school and finish.
  • 17:29Luckily for me,
  • 17:30that meant I had to finish all my
  • 17:32classes with hyperemesis gravidarum.
  • 17:34In Cuba,
  • 17:35Physical Education PE is a
  • 17:37class that you have to take up
  • 17:39until third year of Med school.
  • 17:41So I had to run a mile while pregnant,
  • 17:44steal my only C in Med school to date.
  • 17:47I finished the year and move
  • 17:50back to the Caribbean.
  • 17:51I live between Saint Lucia
  • 17:53and Saint Vincent and Kaya.
  • 17:55Sitting here today with an
  • 17:57interest in psychiatry.
  • 17:59Don't know why was born in Saint Lucia.
  • 18:03Shortly after Kaya was born,
  • 18:06I received a letter that was sent
  • 18:11to my parents house in Guyana saying
  • 18:14that my scholarship was terminated.
  • 18:16The end. Can't go back to Med school,
  • 18:19can't become a doctor.
  • 18:21That was the end.
  • 18:23I appealed to the government,
  • 18:25even to the president.
  • 18:27Nope, that's it, you're pregnant,
  • 18:29you can't go back.
  • 18:34I then appealed to the Cuban
  • 18:36government themselves,
  • 18:37the government of Saint
  • 18:39Vincent and the Grenadines.
  • 18:41Their humanity, compassion,
  • 18:42understanding allowed me to finish
  • 18:45and go back to medical school in Cuba
  • 18:48and graduate as a medical doctor.
  • 18:54This is the world that I grew up in.
  • 19:01A few years later they did the same
  • 19:04thing to another female medical student.
  • 19:07They terminated her scholarship,
  • 19:09she sued them one,
  • 19:12got her scholarship reinstated and
  • 19:16went back to Cuba and finished.
  • 19:21I am not alone.
  • 19:23Sabrina Jacobs published
  • 19:25findings from Data for Progress.
  • 19:27Because this is an election year,
  • 19:29I didn't break down this
  • 19:31data across party lines.
  • 19:32It is available if you
  • 19:34want to go to the source.
  • 19:36The overwhelming majority of
  • 19:39voters are concerned that pregnant
  • 19:42workers should have accommodations.
  • 19:45However, 40% of them are not concerned
  • 19:48about the fair treatment of pregnant mothers.
  • 19:51Meaning that they think that it is wrong,
  • 19:54but they don't recognize that
  • 19:56it's actually a problem.
  • 19:57Reminds us of racism.
  • 19:58No, I think everybody across the
  • 20:01globe says that racism is wrong.
  • 20:03But I wonder what percentage of them
  • 20:07actually think that this is a problem.
  • 20:10the US Equal Opportunity Employment
  • 20:12Commission published date in 2022,
  • 20:15and these are claims that
  • 20:17have been filed with them.
  • 20:19The allegations of pregnancy
  • 20:20discrimination are part of a subset
  • 20:23of discrimination within Title Seven
  • 20:24of the Civil Rights Act of 1960.
  • 20:27Four,
  • 20:2970% of women reported discrimination
  • 20:34the grocer part,
  • 20:3648% of them reported sexual comments
  • 20:39towards them during their pregnancy,
  • 20:42and 30% of them reported harassment
  • 20:44so severe that some of them quit.
  • 20:47With
  • 20:50that, this is 2022.
  • 20:52I lost my scholarship 20 years ago.
  • 20:57Despite facing that discrimination and
  • 20:59losing my scholarship due to pregnancy,
  • 21:03I remain committed to be
  • 21:05to becoming a doctor.
  • 21:07Reflecting on my oath,
  • 21:09it's a reminder that we are members
  • 21:12of society with obligations to all.
  • 21:15I persevered.
  • 21:16I'm here treating patients,
  • 21:18answering my call.
  • 21:19This is Kaya in this pursuit
  • 21:21to become a psychiatrist,
  • 21:23taking some time off of high
  • 21:25school and is our TMS tech.
  • 21:33I will remember that I do not treat
  • 21:35a fever chart a cancerous growth,
  • 21:38but a sick human being whose
  • 21:40illness may affect that person's
  • 21:42family and economic stability.
  • 21:45My responsibility includes
  • 21:47all of these related problems.
  • 21:51You see, for those of us who think
  • 21:53advocacy is not a part of medicine,
  • 21:55the Hippocratic Oath requires
  • 21:58us to be advocates.
  • 22:00One of the most important lessons I
  • 22:02think I learned through that pregnancy
  • 22:05discrimination was what it meant to
  • 22:07me to become a discerning advocate.
  • 22:10Like every single person of color,
  • 22:12there comes a point in your career
  • 22:15where you have to talk about how it
  • 22:18feels to be ex minority in a space.
  • 22:20So many different approaches
  • 22:22to answer this question.
  • 22:24My favorite was Neil deGrasse Tyson.
  • 22:27When I heard him answer this question,
  • 22:30he said I just want to be recognized
  • 22:32as a phenomenal scientist.
  • 22:35Funny enough, for me,
  • 22:36it was the first time I felt
  • 22:38like I could navigate my work
  • 22:40and advocacy in my own way.
  • 22:44The number of patients receiving
  • 22:47intervention treatments in
  • 22:49psychiatry remains really low.
  • 22:51The number of minorities receiving
  • 22:54care and intervention is even worse.
  • 22:57This is a Day to note published by KFF.
  • 23:00They're an independent health source
  • 23:02for health Policy Research and polling.
  • 23:04And this is data gathered pre
  • 23:06pandemic from the National Health.
  • 23:07In the National Health Interview Survey,
  • 23:11more than 30% of patients adults
  • 23:14with Medicare and Medicare reporting
  • 23:17depression and anxiety did not
  • 23:20receive any care and more than 50%
  • 23:23of blacks reporting anxiety and or
  • 23:26depression did not receive care.
  • 23:29In our own health systems here at Yale,
  • 23:31this is.
  • 23:32Data published from 2016 to 2021
  • 23:35for patients receiving ketamine
  • 23:38and esketamine show that patients
  • 23:40were that the patients receiving
  • 23:42the treatment were predominantly
  • 23:44white and privately insured.
  • 23:47Sam did a publish.
  • 23:49Sam published some work from 2014 to
  • 23:522017 and they were two minority patients
  • 23:55and I actually know one of those patients.
  • 23:59My advocacy in medicine is
  • 24:02excellence in clinical care.
  • 24:05I first have to be able to deliver
  • 24:08excellent care to understand and know
  • 24:11what it looks like to then advocate for it.
  • 24:16You see, for a long time I thought
  • 24:19that in my pregnancy discrimination,
  • 24:22I took the easy way out,
  • 24:24that I didn't fight like that other student
  • 24:27and taking the government to court.
  • 24:30The truth is, as I grow,
  • 24:33I realize we each get to decide how
  • 24:36we deploy our efforts in advocacy.
  • 24:39And to each of you in the room here,
  • 24:43white, black, minority, majority,
  • 24:45your method is not less than because
  • 24:49it doesn't look like somebody else's.
  • 24:52We each get to X.
  • 24:53We each get to decide how we advocate our X,
  • 24:57our advocacy.
  • 24:59My own sense of belonging in
  • 25:02places still wavers at times.
  • 25:05None of my mentors in intervention
  • 25:07psychiatry are women, women of color,
  • 25:10even men of color.
  • 25:12You will find yourselves in
  • 25:14rooms and spaces sometimes where
  • 25:17there's no reflection of you.
  • 25:19I am here to be the reflection
  • 25:22for somebody else.
  • 25:23I get to frame what my
  • 25:25own advocacy looks like.
  • 25:31Using your voice with integrity
  • 25:34means speaking honestly,
  • 25:36authentically, and responsibly.
  • 25:39Our words are a reflection of our
  • 25:43character and we must understand
  • 25:45the impact they can have on others.
  • 25:49Understanding that your delivery
  • 25:51can obscure your message.
  • 25:53My husband can attest that
  • 25:55I'm still working on this.
  • 25:58Before advocating for others,
  • 26:00please take the time to gather as much
  • 26:05information and inform your approach.
  • 26:08Guard your integrity.
  • 26:11During my residency,
  • 26:13I had a report made against me
  • 26:16from a from a fellow resident that
  • 26:19I denied a patient a procedure
  • 26:22in intervention psychiatry.
  • 26:24She said that she was advocating
  • 26:26for her patient.
  • 26:27She did not clearly understand
  • 26:30the indications for each procedure
  • 26:33in intervention psychiatry.
  • 26:35Guard your integrity.
  • 26:37Gather the information before
  • 26:40you make your case.
  • 26:43I will not be ashamed to say I know not,
  • 26:46nor will I fail to call in my
  • 26:48colleagues on the skill of
  • 26:50another is required or needed
  • 26:51for a patient's recovery.
  • 26:53In the Caribbean,
  • 26:54we have a phrase that don't run your mouth.
  • 26:57This is basically what the
  • 26:59Hippocratic O translates to.
  • 27:04Oops, the perimeter of ignorance.
  • 27:08Again, you guys can tell I
  • 27:10like Neil deGrasse Tyson.
  • 27:11In 2005, he eloquently he wrote this eloquent
  • 27:14paper called the Perimeter of Ignorance.
  • 27:17If you ever have a chance to read it,
  • 27:18please do. He eloquently explores in
  • 27:21it the boundaries between scientific
  • 27:24knowledge and the unknown.
  • 27:26He argues the the greatest discoveries
  • 27:30often happen in this perimeter where
  • 27:33our understanding meets this vast
  • 27:35expanse of what we yet do not know.
  • 27:38He emphasizes that the pursuit of
  • 27:41knowledge is a continuous journey
  • 27:43driven by curiosity and desire to
  • 27:46push beyond current limits.
  • 27:48I will make Katie proud and
  • 27:51says this is my Yale.
  • 27:52He emphasizes here,
  • 27:54and the amazing lesson is
  • 27:57that as our knowledge grows,
  • 28:00so does that perimeter of
  • 28:03ignorance surrounding it.
  • 28:04He advocates for embracing the
  • 28:06unknown with a sense of wonder
  • 28:09and a commitment to rigorous
  • 28:12scientific investigation.
  • 28:13This is the practice of medicine.
  • 28:16Embracing the unknown and
  • 28:19being honest about it,
  • 28:23knowing what we do not know,
  • 28:25is the most powerful thing.
  • 28:29The care of my patients is my North Star.
  • 28:32I have both professionals and trainees
  • 28:35ask me all the time how to be an expert.
  • 28:38My son Storm is not here today
  • 28:40because he elected to finish.
  • 28:42He is in the final of a basketball tournament
  • 28:45and he says, Mom, my team needs me.
  • 28:48He's apparently really also good at something
  • 28:51called Fortnite along with basketball.
  • 28:53And if you asked him how to move from
  • 28:56a novice to an expert, his response
  • 28:59is always you got to keep playing.
  • 29:03Hours of work, lots of failure,
  • 29:06sacrifice, looking at that failure,
  • 29:10examining it and trying again.
  • 29:14There is no shortcut.
  • 29:16Stop looking for one.
  • 29:19There is no work life balance.
  • 29:21Not to the beginning anyway for
  • 29:24anyone that is ultra successful.
  • 29:28If you want to work life balance that is OK,
  • 29:32but don't expect greatness.
  • 29:34You will walk a very frustrated path if you
  • 29:37think that reward does not require work.
  • 29:45I understood very well my perimeter
  • 29:48of ignorance and for those that
  • 29:51have seen my lecturer knows,
  • 29:52know that this is one of my
  • 29:55favorite quotes from Rumi.
  • 29:57When setting out on a journey,
  • 29:58do not seek advice from those
  • 30:00that have never left home.
  • 30:02I wanted to understand the business
  • 30:05of medicine and wanted to understand
  • 30:07what I didn't know, so I went to folks
  • 30:10who have journeyed away from home.
  • 30:13A very good friend of mine,
  • 30:14now Doctor Steve Levine,
  • 30:16is a pioneer in outpatient ketamine
  • 30:19during its early stages of psychiatric use.
  • 30:22He actually started quite a few
  • 30:24clinics here on the Northeast.
  • 30:25He will hate me for this,
  • 30:26but if you're interested in learning
  • 30:28about the early days of ketamine,
  • 30:29his original videos are still
  • 30:31on the Internet.
  • 30:32So that thing your mom always says,
  • 30:34but don't put it on the Internet,
  • 30:35it's there forever.
  • 30:37It actually is.
  • 30:38I reached out to him.
  • 30:40I will let him tell you that story.
  • 30:42The first conversation I had with him,
  • 30:44I was actually standing in
  • 30:46the lobby of the YPH hospital.
  • 30:49Over the years.
  • 30:50He did not give me the playbook.
  • 30:53He gave me the gift of his lessons
  • 30:56learned from feedback and his setbacks.
  • 30:59His direction ultimately paved
  • 31:00the way for me to be in many
  • 31:03leadership spaces that I am today.
  • 31:07Doctor Michael Vollmer, he's,
  • 31:08he also has a very extensive background in
  • 31:12emergency medicine, if you didn't know.
  • 31:14I think the only thing that tells you is
  • 31:16that we both have impatience in common.
  • 31:19The phenomenal thing that he did
  • 31:21was he introduced me to others in
  • 31:23Connecticut in private practice,
  • 31:25but with models that I didn't
  • 31:27work with Hash P sliding scale.
  • 31:30In recognizing his own limits,
  • 31:33he was able to push me in the
  • 31:35directions to get the information
  • 31:36and the answers that I needed.
  • 31:38I also did my homework.
  • 31:41I looked at the folks with MBAs and
  • 31:43then looked at the coffee shop in
  • 31:45Stratford where I like Cafe Talia.
  • 31:47Successful businesses.
  • 31:48I joined the Small Businesses Administration,
  • 31:52taking their feedback and guidance.
  • 31:56One of my mentors through SCORE
  • 31:58was actually a former CEO of Timex.
  • 32:01Another mentor was a Provost of a university.
  • 32:03Here they read my business plan
  • 32:06and redlined it.
  • 32:08My husband also gives me
  • 32:09fantastic feedback all the time.
  • 32:11At one point I wanted to open a
  • 32:13coffee shop with a yoga studio.
  • 32:15Still a dream of mine,
  • 32:17but he redlined that business.
  • 32:18Planned very hard as well.
  • 32:21I know when to say I don't know
  • 32:23and when to get help.
  • 32:27As I set out to deliver
  • 32:29care in the community,
  • 32:30I was faced many daunting questions.
  • 32:34The one that was most important to me
  • 32:36is that I wanted to provide the same
  • 32:38quality and standard of care that
  • 32:40patients would have getting through
  • 32:42the doors of Yale New Haven Hospital.
  • 32:44I wanted to do that in the community.
  • 32:47Was that even possible?
  • 32:50I knew I wanted to make
  • 32:52intervention treatments accessible.
  • 32:53I had to take insurance.
  • 32:55I had to figure it out.
  • 32:57I built an environment that is so
  • 33:00beautiful for people of all walks of life.
  • 33:05Katie mentioned it earlier,
  • 33:06but I want you to know that the thing
  • 33:09that I am a most proud of is when
  • 33:12colleagues ask me to treat their families.
  • 33:15That to me is the testament of my excellence.
  • 33:19Clinically, my outpatient life
  • 33:21has not been without challenges.
  • 33:23You guys know these buttons.
  • 33:25Ask the audience,
  • 33:25Phone a friend 5050 you think of these
  • 33:27as your options in clinical care.
  • 33:29This is exactly what we do.
  • 33:32I had my first,
  • 33:32I do my own Ivs in the office.
  • 33:34I had the one, the first one in Extravis 8.
  • 33:36I called my phone, a friend,
  • 33:39an ER doctor in New Jersey,
  • 33:42his name is Patrick.
  • 33:43We affectionately call him.
  • 33:44Rocky answered immediately.
  • 33:45When I treated my first acute trauma patient,
  • 33:49I called Jerry.
  • 33:51Sana Cora answered immediately.
  • 33:53When I had patients,
  • 33:55two patients with the same rare adverse
  • 33:57events to both ketamine and esketamine,
  • 33:59I called Sheldon and I called Jerry.
  • 34:02I think I promised them
  • 34:04that I'd write case reports.
  • 34:05I will get to it, I promise.
  • 34:07But they answered immediately.
  • 34:10As you step into this new phase of your life,
  • 34:15carry this reverence for the
  • 34:17unknown with you and ask for help.
  • 34:21Building and relying on a supportive
  • 34:22network has always been paramount
  • 34:24to my journey,
  • 34:25both professionally as well as personally.
  • 34:29The reality is,
  • 34:30and I think in fourth year,
  • 34:32you realize it,
  • 34:33that the limited time frame of of residency
  • 34:35can't encompass and we can't teach
  • 34:38you everything that you need to know.
  • 34:40But what I am confident in is that
  • 34:43we have equipped you with a framework
  • 34:45and a mindset to embrace lifelong
  • 34:48learning and always strive for excellence.
  • 34:51During the pandemic,
  • 34:52I think we all took a collective pause,
  • 34:55lots of introspection.
  • 34:56Medscape helped us out and did
  • 34:59a a survey of of about 13,000
  • 35:03physicians across 29 specialties.
  • 35:05As you guys can see up there,
  • 35:06it's clearly too late to
  • 35:08become a dermatologist.
  • 35:09And curiously you see that oncologists
  • 35:11are less burnt out than we are.
  • 35:14I would have never guessed that as a
  • 35:16multiple choice answer to that question.
  • 35:19But we are the gurus of self-care.
  • 35:21Spending time with family and
  • 35:23friends is how we stay happy.
  • 35:30The renowned Harvard study
  • 35:32spanning 80 decades, 8 decades,
  • 35:3580 years, serves as a poignant
  • 35:37reminder that ultimately,
  • 35:39the source of happiness lies in
  • 35:43the quality of our relationships.
  • 35:45In fact, for those psychotherapists
  • 35:47in the room you tell,
  • 35:48we have all been taught that a
  • 35:50person's response to psychotherapy,
  • 35:52the measure is what is the quality of their
  • 35:55personal relationships that they have.
  • 35:58As we navigate our careers,
  • 36:00nurturing authentic
  • 36:01connections with colleagues,
  • 36:02patience and our widest and our
  • 36:06wider community becomes indispensable
  • 36:08for measuring our fulfillment.
  • 36:11My philosophy encapsulates fairness,
  • 36:14kindness and paying it forward.
  • 36:17These guide my approach in both
  • 36:20business and professional interactions.
  • 36:22I will not help someone that is selfish.
  • 36:26In my role as a business owner and a
  • 36:28medical director, I appreciate my team.
  • 36:31I placed unwavering trust in my team,
  • 36:35allowing them the freedom to grow and excel.
  • 36:39I will share with you that I have
  • 36:41treated 21 patients with ketamine and
  • 36:44esketamine and still left work by
  • 36:473:00 PM to catch my 4:00 yoga class.
  • 36:50I firmly believe the strength of my
  • 36:53team is a reflection to our collective
  • 36:57dedication and mutual support.
  • 36:59Casey, Patrick, Nora, Jesus,
  • 37:02Terrell have been instrumental
  • 37:04in my success story.
  • 37:06While building any team is an
  • 37:10iterative process, each member,
  • 37:12regardless of whether they remained or left,
  • 37:16imparted valuable lessons
  • 37:18that have shaped my journey.
  • 37:20As we embark on a second location,
  • 37:23I am reminded that investing in this team,
  • 37:27I'm included in this team.
  • 37:28So investing in myself is not
  • 37:31just about the business goals,
  • 37:33but about creating a positive
  • 37:36impact on them and our community.
  • 37:39Southport, Connecticut, here we come.
  • 37:41Mathematicians, I know you're still there.
  • 37:45Our department's mission
  • 37:47statement was revised last year.
  • 37:50I share this portion that resonates
  • 37:53with my message to you today.
  • 37:56Yale's mission is to improve the
  • 37:58world for generations to come through
  • 38:00outstanding research and scholarship,
  • 38:02education, preservation,
  • 38:03and practice.
  • 38:05This mission lives through us,
  • 38:08through you as you graduate
  • 38:10and continue to and continue
  • 38:12on this professional journey.
  • 38:16Recently, I went to Kansas.
  • 38:19Mariela, who was like a daughter to me.
  • 38:21She graduated medical school a
  • 38:24few weeks ago and I had the honor
  • 38:27of performing her hooding as we
  • 38:30have all done here in the room.
  • 38:32The graduating class recited the SIP,
  • 38:35the Hippocratic Oath.
  • 38:37It was such a reminder.
  • 38:39I would like to invite you all with
  • 38:41me in the room today to stand.
  • 38:47I would like you to say this with me
  • 38:52if I do not violate this oath.
  • 38:55May I enjoy life and art,
  • 38:58respected while I live,
  • 39:01and remembered with affection thereafter.
  • 39:04May I act, may I always act
  • 39:07so as to preserve the finest
  • 39:10traditions of my calling.
  • 39:12May I long experience the joy.
  • 39:18Thank you, you can say it.
  • 39:20Thank you experiencing that joy of
  • 39:24healing those who seek our help.
  • 39:27Thank you so much for
  • 39:29allowing me to share my part,
  • 39:31the parts of my life with you.
  • 39:33I hope my stories have illustrated
  • 39:36how the power of resilience,
  • 39:39continuous learning,
  • 39:40and incorporating feedback
  • 39:42have been vital to my journey.
  • 39:46I hope you share my dedication to
  • 39:50lifelong learning and to my Yale
  • 39:52and the importance of being open and
  • 39:55honest of what we yet do not know.
  • 39:59Thank you.